#10 Salisbury miSteak

going for a long drive,

drinking,

the old drink,

make everyone think.

but I can't be heard,

a little weird,

familiarity,

family.

talk it over,

heard it before spoken,

expect unnoticed embarrassment,

the not same.

new twists expected,

travel by cab,

to a new slab,

in the rain.

same game later,

still heard it before,

it is in me,

part of my meld.

ok.
it will be ok.

#9 Know

give me a time,

when the love was all mine,

and i'll record it in a notebook.

who's got the guts,

to draw the line,

on the page.

when nobody's looking.

it's a secret you see,

you don't have to believe,

it's a dream,

someone else's reality.

if someone would find it,

the sky would fall down,

the moon and the sun,

would go black.

martians invade,

the table'd be set,

the earth would tremble,

to know it.

and still,

maybe not,

being true,

to yourself

your true friends,

would keep you protected,

from disease and the cold,

until you are old,

you’d forget and you would not even know it.

#8 keep it

i heard it mentioned

rings true for a girl
 

jealousy?

complexity

co-dependence,
mine.

my past proves,

yes keep things the same.

she should not worry,

i will overtime.

over-committment,

my thing,

my thing,

my thing.

protective self-preservation,

doing me well.

a change?

again?

this way is new,

not the same is good.

Uncle Glenn,

Wisdom?

future,

does not exist.

#4 Fine Lines

i'm carrying my heart to another state,

don't mind me,

don't know my way around,

we'll have to wait and hear and see.

cloudy thoughts come to words,

when living,

like the forgotten name.

words will always fail me,

until I see what's true.

i can be whole,

i am,

i wonder if it's true.

no regrets on this journey since birth,

if I've lost my mind I never knew.

me first,
must be this way.

still i am happy that we are us,

me and you just won't do.

kansas city here I come,

only details to learn,

i am me,

so it will be the familar.

traveling through time,

freedom and God I keep,

love is all I need,

love is all I seek.

the road is hard beneath my tires,

darkness is not new,

i'll get that job,

i'll take the rest,

some sleep that I am due.

i'll explain what's happened when this life's journey is reflected in my heart.

#7 Patients with Transference

hello dr Lisa
who's the patient today?
each asking how you are
'must be you or I

smile if you must
some teasing laughing trust
i talk a while and so do you
a wonder free of lust

it's natural and it's simple
all together healthy
liking you is easy
session's quickly done

after complicated
feelings that are left
denial of these feelings
something I have felt

brushed them off
had my way
even lovingly inspired
admitted truth day by day

connect to me
connect to you
disregardless ethics of profession
two humans couldn't have more patience
with compassion and expression

perhaps another time
become just more than patient
a healthy jewish girl
bet me still your favorite client

#6 Couldn't Help Her

she had such a positive attitude that it hurt to watch
the dreams she had repeat and want action

money can make it hard to live and easy to talk
a quick fix works to disappoint

badly disguised denial takes lots of energy
worry about being phoney guarantees

my heart knew something was very wrong
the pain in my heart grew and grew
it swallowed me and my love for her

We were gone
Plenty of wine

#5 'Never Did

'Never did find you looking
as if you really cared

'Never meant to have you
look at me and stare

And judge and judge and judge me
When you were standing there

What's up with your criticism
and who gave you that right

Are you the One from above
What happened to real love?